The Heretic One

I should have turned to you and said
"It's alright, darling someday you'll forget me"
And your eyes would have welled up with tears
I would have as well
So these days,
a wandering mind holds sway
And hope is enough
Sing with me
Sing with me
Will you cry out for me in your sleep
Wasting what precious little time we have had
Like a dead man trying to find life
Against a bright moon, dark sky and city lights
Like dead man trying to find life
Against a bright moon, dark sky and city lights
The colour of her eyes
The taste of her flesh
I feel again
Quietly leave me
Quietly leave me
Again Again

There's a beautiful sky tonight and if you were by my side then we could share it but you're gone. So come at me with your moon and burn me in the stars cause nothing matters anymore. If I could only see you now for about an hour. Maybe just a minute. Just to ask what has he got that I don't have? Is it his brown eyes? I know blue eyes get boring but I'll wear dark glasses all the time and hey if you want me to, I'll take a knife to my own bright eyes. If I could only see you now for about an hour. Maybe just a minute. Just to ask what has he got that I don't have? Is it his brown eyes? Well, I'll give you a thousand reasons that tonight you should grant me this one wish. Like the one year of my life that I gave to you and now you put me through hell. You break me up. I should hate you, but I can't replace you in my heart. why am I so pathetic? I don't get it why you won't return my calls. Can't you look at me once? And please if you got a minute, enjoy this lonely sky with me. It'll swallow us whole if we only let it. If I could only see you now for about an hour. Maybe just a minute. Just to ask what has he got that i don't have? Is it his brown eyes? Well, I'll give a thousand reasons that tonight you should grant me this one wish. Like the one year of my life that i gave to you and now you put me through hell. You break me up. Yeah. If this sky's going to eat us then I'd like to be digested into a million pieces with you. I'd love to be scattered to hell with you. To hell with you.

I'm having issues with working out the point of everything.

I can't get a decent job, I'm alone, and no one gives a shit.

I dinged Graduate-level today.

Got to shake former-PM Jim Bolger's hand too.

Woot.

Bravo. The first time I've got to the end of a game and wanted to applaud. The second time I've finished a game and felt tears in my eyes (the first being Half Life 2: Episode 2). As

I don't know how many of you have one of these. However,if you would care to add me:

Richard White's Facebook profile

OK Go Grab Your phone!
Answer Exactly How Things Are In Your Phone...GO

1. What Color Is Your Phone?
It's black, charcoal, and silver.

2. Who's The First Person Who Comes Up Under The Letter M?
Martin - Good guy, I need to hang out with him more

3. Who's The Last Person You Called?
*333 (the telecom balance/remaining text message number). If we're talking real people, the Chris W (my little brother. Had to work out which room he, his girlfriend, and my brand new nephew were in at the birthing centre)

4. Who Was Your Last Missed Call From?
Work. Pretty much every call I get is from them

5. Who's The 2nd Person Who Comes Up Under D?
Danae - old friend of a friend

6. Who's Speed Dial 2?
I don't actually have my speed dials set up

7. Who's The 3rd Person Who Comes Up Under J?
James - I have no idea. I know a couple, but I didn't realise I got any of their numbers

8. Who Was Your Fourth Last Received Call From?
A number not in my book, but I remember that it was from a woman at King St Advertising informing me that my interview to work there as an Accounts/Media executive had been unsuccessful (ie, I suck)

9. Who's Speed Dial Number 4?
I don't have one

10. What Is Your Background?
Just a standard blue thing with bubbles and an analogue clock

11. How Many Text Messages Are Currently In Your Inbox?
20. I think I deleted some yesterday, heh

12. Who's Speed Dial 1?
Voice Mail. Must come as standard

13. What's The 5th Message Say In Your Inbox?
From the top? "Swt munkey cya soon". Raquel (I haven't really said anything about her here) and I organised to have coffee today at uni, but she didn't bother to go to class, so she organised to pick me up from there

14. Who's The 1st Person Who Comes Up Under K?
Karl - My cousin who I really need to see sometime. I was his best man at his wedding, but we haven't had the chance to talk lately, since he lives in Kawerau

15. Who Was Your Last Text Message From?
Raquel, telling me she's a good girl and working on stuff at the library

16. Name Every Person You Have Text Messages From:
Raquel, Sade (manager at work), Nadine (my boss), Chris (my little bro). I'm not that popular

18. Who's The 9th Person On Your Missed Calls?
Work, Woohoo, lol

19. What Does The 6th Message In Your Outbox Say?
"Still on for coffee?" Raquel fell asleep all day, and I didn't know if she was still up for it.

20. Who Is The First Name In Your Phonebook?
Alaric, who I don't see as often as I should.

21. Who Is The Last Name In Your Phonebook?
Xris, an old friend and workmate who I also need to catch up with, because he's a laugh, and he's borderline insane

22. Do You Have A Camera Phone?
Yes, but it's only crap, and I hardly use it

23. Who Is The Last Person Under G?
Grace - an old workmate

24. What Does The Last Text Message Say In Your Inbox?
"I mite be... Nic wants 2 borow ur tophat :-P we'r all getn cosy" Don't ask, lol

25. Who Is The Second Person Under K?
Keith, a hilarious chinese guy at work (real name Xiaolei Zheng)

26. What Is Your Ringtone?
I'm boring. When my phone rings, it actually rings. You see, it actually makes me stand out from every motherfucker out there with some downloaded ringtone, so that when I'm out and I hear a ringing sound, I know it's me. Also, I'd hate to hear a song  and thing someone actually cares about me.

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like "maybe we should be just friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love. I hate love." - Sandman

My gamertag is blaqkmage. add me :P

My brain is slightly hazed by nicotine right now, and in the haze, I remembered that I still have this thing. I might as well use it every now and then rather than merely checking my friends page every day or so to see if anyone I know out in the land of the interwubs has any semblance of a life.

I've started smoking while sober again in the last few days. I don't really know why. I bought a pack the other day while walking to visit the lady I've started seeing. She's a smoker, so I guess I thought that if I had some it would give me something to do while she smoked. Of course, she told me that she'd quit provided I didn't start, but, hey, I don't think that would happen. It's quite nice having the numb feeling that nicotine gives you again. It could tempt me to go and find everything else I've given up in the past few years while I transformed into a boring old fart.

I originally quit for two reasons; two packs a week equaled the cost of enough booze to get me trashed at home at least once (or to eat for an extra day or two), which on a student budget is quite important, and I kept getting quite sick on a regular basis (my irrational fear of death was a minor factor as well, but who's counting?). Now that I should have finished university the cost isn't as much of a factor, and I've been living in a house where a thousand nations of the fungal empire aren't blocking out the sun with their spores on a daily basis for about a year, so my health isn't as much of an issue. I don't really want to start again, but fuck me if it doesn't feel good. The fact that Marlboro, my brand, is one of the most addictive around is kind of a problem though.

I have one more exam, and provided I haven't fucked up too bad, I should be able to walk away with the letters BCS attached to my name. Meaning if I lose the C somewhere it doesn't really matter as I have a spare. My worry at this time is actually finding a job. I need to get around to updating my CV and portfolio so I can start shopping around at advertising agencies (since I worked out I might have a chance there), before I go and lower my standards. I'm half expecting that my pure lack of motivation and love of taking whatever falls in my lap will result in me running a McDonald's or some crap in the long term though.

That's all I feel about talking about right now. Fuck y'all

[edit] Requescat in Pace, George Carlin
[edit, the second] Fuck Seasonal Affective Disorder

Check it out. I wrote a research project on Anonymous. I broke the first two rules!

Read here and don't be unoriginal and comment tl;dr

Over the last week I have:

Been dumped by a girl I really liked so she could get back with her ex;
Come to the realisation that I may not pass one of my papers meaning that I may have to spend another semester at university
Come to the realisation that even if I do get my degree now, I have no idea what I'm going to do with it
Been hit by a car while scootering to work, (the car ignored a give way and t-boned me) writing off the scooter and causing some damage to my body.

And I'm smiling.

I'm alive.

In the multiverse my funeral is probably being planned somewhere, but right here I'm laughing and telling the powers of chance to bring it on. If I can get hit by a fucking car and walk it off, I can take anything you bastards can do to me. I am fucking immortal! I am waving my cock at the world and requesting you all suck it, because I can survive anything! Bring it on you fucks! I'll fucking take you all on, one at a time, and then fuck your mothers just because I can!

Dumped impersonally for someone better.

Story of my fucking life

So, I'm not exactly a webcartoonist anymore, but hey, this looked like fun. So I followed suit with all of them.

ZOMG QC

I'm gonna follow a few of the other webcartoonists with a meme. I'll do it half assed though, since I don't have as many friends as they do.

Comment, and ask me questions. The first 10 questions asked, I will answer, in COMIC FORM.

GO

[Edit: I'm only choosing 4 of Nat's. Everyone else has to have a turn. You turn hog you]

I have looked into the face of pure evil, and it comes not from Islamic Terrorists, Corporate Culture, nor the work of demons, as previously suspected, but from a family. A simple, God-fearing family. Look thee upon this evil, and shudder.


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Stolen from Warren Ellis

Would you pray with me?

Be ready, and full of hope.

Would you pray with me?

Father I pray for the ability to apprehend the reality of Satan, and, even more, the reality of his demise, and eventual, absolute, exclusion from the universe of light and fire. This is not mythology, this is reality. We look to the things that are unseen, as we pray for those kind of eyes.

And help me to be faithful to what is spoken here, and to speak it in the spirit, the same spirit that inspired it.

In your hands I commit myself and all those who listen.

Increase our faith, and grant us triumphs over unbelief, sin, and Satan.

In Jesus, the mighty name I pray.

Amen

They should remember that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night. It will be sudden, and unexpected, by almost everyone. The world will be going on as usual as it was in the days of Noah. Sudden destruction will come upon them, so they will not stumble upon the word soon.

Pray that they will know, that for me, it will be soon. For them, it will be sudden.

Pray that they will understand that expecting it to be soon is the best way not to drift into the indifference and be snatched away in destruction. And pray that those who come after you, will have that same desire.

And until then, never forget, and don't let the people forget; when I come, I will crush Satan, under your feet. My Grace be with you.

Hi - During Movember (the month formerly known as November) I'm growin' a Mo.

That's right I'm bringing the Mo back because I'm passionate about men's health and the fight against prostate cancer and I want you on my team. My Mo Team is called Downtown Destroyers.

To join my Movember team go to http://www.movember.com/nz/register, and simply follow the steps. Once you have completed your registration you'll be sent all the info you need to get growing and sponsored as part of my Movember team.

You will need these details to complete your online registration:

Captain's Rego: 142653
Captain's Email Address: richard@infinitestupidity.net

Men's health is a major issue. Did you know:

* Every year in New Zealand 2,656 men are diagnosed with prostate cancer and about 600 die of the disease, making prostate cancer the second largest cause of male cancer deaths, after lung cancer.
* The average life expectancy of a man in New Zealand is 4 years less than a woman.

All donations are made directly to the Prostate Cancer Foundation of New Zealand who will use the funds to create awareness, increase support networks for those men who suffer from prostate cancer, fund research and scholarship programs.


Cheers

Richard

More info is available at www.movember.com.

Movember is proudly grown by Holden, L&P, The Rock, Tui and Schick.

Movember a proud partner of the Prostate Cancer Foundation of New Zealand.

OK, I haven't hit the end of Ep Two yet, so bear with me.

( Spoilers )